This is the count down to my first official nervous breakdown. At-man’s first day of kindergarten is Thursday. We went to meet the teacher day this past Friday and it looks like the entire situation is unavoidable. He has his cubby assignment so there is no backing out now. If you ever have a choice, I would recommend not having to send your oldest child off to his first day of “big kid school” while being a very pregnant, hormonal disaster. Actually, I would recommend the basic avoidance of anything other than the selection of television channels while 7 months pregnant.

At-man and I entered the school on meet the teacher day and grabbed our map to his class. That was all it took. I actually had to keep my sunglasses on the ENTIRE time so as to avoid him seeing my eyes well up. He’s still so little. How can he be going to the same school as 10 YEAR OLDS? There are 10 Year olds bigger than me now. Have you seen this? Is this even possible? Where have I been for the past 5 years? Just yesterday he was calling ducks “goosters” and wearing Pull Ups and now he is going to school with children big enough to take down his mom.

I don’t know why this is still so emotional to me, he has been in preschool since he was 2. Elementary school, however, is completely different. Not sure why, but it is. We spent the past weekend shopping for supplies. I was very proud that he passed over the more commercially branded backpacks for an understated camouflage number with matching lunch kit. I’m still not a big fan of the camouflage deal but have been told to “get over it”. With 2 sons I guess I have little choice. We have also obtained a frog shaped eraser, crayons, color changing pencils and our very own pair of scissors. At-man has poured over each item, packing and repacking them into his new book bag. He is very excited.

And now for something completely different…

I was out for my morning huff and puff and it occurred to me. This baby has the exact same due date as Em, and Em came 2 1/2 weeks early. That means that I may well only have 2 months to go. 2 MONTHS TO GO. The nursery is still blue, and my infant car seat is expired. We got some work to do people! The only item currently on my to do list is to create a to do list. I can’t get beyond that. Sad. I have about a thousand things that should actually appear on said list, and absolutely no time whatsoever to do them. Not to mention that before the baby’s actual due date we have to get through my birthday, D’s birthday, Em’s birthday, my FIL’s birthday, my nieces birthday, our family vacation, an Elvis Costello concert, At-man’s first day of school, Em’s first day of school, and our 8th anniversary. WHEW!

And again, to stress that this is totally random, we went and saw Ratatiouille yesterday. On the good side, Em actually sat through the entire thing, which was pretty impressive. On the down side, it was no “Finding Nemo”. The animation was great, the story cute, but 2 and 5 year olds just don’t seem to appreciate fancy cheese jokes.